This cycle is proving to be much different than I expected. Honestly, we’ve taken all pressure off trying to get pregnant. I’m really focusing on losing the weight necessary to kick this PCOS in the a$$. We’re leaving this whole thing up to God, because we have realized that whatever He has planned for us is better than our plans anyhow – so we’ll trust in His timing.
That being said, blogging and baking have been in the back of my mind for the last week or so. When you can’t eat your baking, you can’t write about it. And when you are trying your hardest not to think about your cycle, writing down the details are kind of counter-productive.
So, here I am. Its Cycle Day 7 of what is possibly our 16th cycle TTC, though that can’t be the right number because its been 18 months, and I KNOW I haven’t had 16 cycles in 18 months. So somewhere I lost count and have been tracking incorrectly. We’ll just say its been a heck of a long time. My last cycle finally ended at 73 days, which was such a relief, but the period that followed was WICKED. Honestly, the worst one I’ve ever had in my life. If I could have stayed in the bathtub for a week straight, I would have.
I’ve been so good at sticking to my diet, and I’ve lost 4 pounds so far. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but for someone with insulin-resistant PCOS, losing any amount of weight is a BIG deal. So to celebrate, I made dessert tonight. And it was pretty low on the points-scale, while still being indulgent. Check it out. (And wave hi to my best friend, an Australian import.)
Peanut Butter & Banana Pudding
1 package fat-free vanilla pudding mix (the 108gm pack)
1 tub low-fat Cool Whip
1/2 cup peanut butter
1 box (about 2 cups) vanilla wafer cookies (I used fat-free animal crackers)
1 14-oz can low-fat sweetened condensed milk
1 1/2 cups cold water
In a large bowl, whisk together water and condensed milk. Mix in vanilla pudding mix, beat until thickened. Whisk in the peanut butter until no lumps remain. Refrigerate for about 15 minutes. When chilled, gently fold in the container of Cool Whip.
In a trifle dish (or individual dessert cups/glasses), layer wafers, sliced banana and pudding. Bananas should be placed vertically around the edges to create visual layers. Repeat layers, and top with bananas for decoration.
Chill before serving, approximately 30 minutes. Then devour!
Yeah, I know its not exactly ‘baking’. But its great for a hot summer day, and its a snap to put together. Also, for not many points per serving, its a good compromise when I’m really craving carbs!